my eight sweet friends :)

ok... this started when i moved to Al Nomow Altarbawi Schools N.T.S,when i was in fifth grade... for me then it was a disaster i loved my first school which was Al Omaria then my parents decided that N.T.S will b just much better for my personality...i was like huh?!? but after all it was the best thing that ever happend to me! i thought i was going to talk abt my friends but ok ill talk abt my school shwai b4 it :), i loved my school in unbelievable way... u just can b special there in ur own way...they were never to strict on us it really felt like OUR school ya our own school, they just give u ur space to built ur own personality in ur special way, u just have that space that u need when u r a teenager in the very right way.. i owe this school too much for who i am now and i still cry every time i pass by it :) LONG LIVE N.T.S ( class of deviles)

anyway one of the very special things i got from N.T.S is .. my very special friends.. i met them there yes when i was in fifth grade ......and they are still my very close friends!!!!!!! u know when u have that (gang) in ur school...u will not believe it! yes we r still together!
Asma,Dina,Rahme,Rasha,Sama,Seba,Sasha,yasmeen And me ..... some of them were together since KG and some of them were a late...we met them in 7th grade :p
we still ALL together... no we dont c each other occasionaly! we are real friends we know eveything abt each other and whats going on in everyones life y3ni we r updated by each others news all the time, we do the meetings whenever we can.... in special occasions on al3eed, on our birthdays, we are all together, in sickness and health.. sometimes we wonder how could this b real? we are all here together again and agian ?! i cant thank god enough for them, im so lucky to have these real eight friends in my life... ppl can survive with only one good friend and im surviving with my best eight friends... i cant b luckier! i still have my school friends :)
this is really big it was like that for my last 10 years?? woow! i just realized that!

girlz i loveee yooou so much..... u prbably know that ;p

BY THE WAY GIRLZ.........
wilfarawla bta3 ilfarawla ... wil3atel beta3at teeeh :D

my shelfs

these are my sweet little shelfs that i learned from them alot... this is my favorate,best part in my room i love it, books are my other world and i owe the pages alot! sometimes i just talk abt sth and i give information abt things im not aware that i knew anything abt it..... then i remember that i read it once on a book or a mag...so this little library was like my backup in some situations and i really prefer buying books rather than borrowing them i just feel they really belong to me and they r helping me!! just me! so i feel exeptional by these books most of my time.... they really helped me to build my personality so i thought i really owe these shelfs and these books a big thanx! :)
..its exactly above my bed and its the only thing that i picked carefully when i designed my room... regardless the blue painting and the orange curtains with the blue squares :)
luv.......
by the way ... the picture of my shelfs will never appear! i tried a 1000 time! so use ur imagination :)

denemark.... amr khaled

heres what amr khaled has said abt the denemark thing with our prophet (pbuh)
www.amrkhaled.net/articles/articles1242.html
and by the way.....
what is it with u muslims? is burning embassies is the best u can do?! thats exactly what they want from us they want to stick this terorrism thing with our bodies more and more and we r giving them what they want, they just couldnt be so convincig abt why did they enter iraq..and thier ppl start asking themselves was this war really important for us? and the 9\11 that weak story is starting to collapse,so they found another game for us,they just know what they r doing!!! devils!! now america really is governed by real devils!
thats how we deal with it ,,burn,scream,protest and then what? forget and pray?!what abt practical steps? what abt seeing whats really going on with us that they could reach our holy issues easily?!
this time either we will b seriuos abt our anger and we will wake up and revise all our bad situations in iraq,in palestine spcially the aqsa...in syria....iran whenever america sniffing...or this time will b the last time that u will c a muslim or even an arbian livig with dignity ever! wake up its a big game....and u cant c any big man taking place where are you???! and we r the pupets!!
oh my god...i cant take this anymore!

you dont have to read this!

i just want to get things out of my chest..im not feeling ok and mayb that will help me out!

i dont want to b so dramatic or even too romatic ...its just where is the love? is there anybody miss the real pure love here except me?! did we really used to realations between males and females and love turned to sth can b easiley changed? or not even important? it seems like in our time to like somebody is really enough!does our hearts become so dull and cold? and i mean love the real love! who can get 2 persons married..sacrefice....the love that can make u the happiest ever and u really dont feel anything going wrong as long as u have that one beside u or even at ur site....when u can have ur little world away from anythig and no matter what!!!!!!! ull b fine.... why its so hard to love somebody and to b loved back?! always!!!! even when everything will go ok after all it seems too hard to fall in love... !
who can deny the need for love at least then to b loved..but it seems like always we are loved by the wrong person, even if this person can b so kind and tender and sweet..they just dont fit or click! and sometimes ur loved ones seems too far and staying in that other world that u just cant b in!
sometimes i feel even if im so succesfull in everything in my life and really doing good things and having my time full and work write or read....i just feel its worthless without having somebody to love ...mayb its only me but mayb ppl do feel this way sometime..if anybody feels the same dont hesitate plz tell me coz i need it!
when u have love in ur life u just look nicer sound nicer u think in urself in a better way u wait every morning to come and evey moon to rise....u just feel better!
im a big believer in love...and without love i think things will go even worst in this world.... and life cant goes on!
take it easy! its only some feelings:)

can this b more political?

from the begining i knew that the denemark cartoon thing abt our prophet muhammad (pbuh)will not stop there and will not end up in the easy way... it is political

X.for those who think its papers or word or press freedom no its not! in every way journalism is away from religious beliefs... thats well known!never too close never too far, but the other world america and europe... know in a very good way what does prophet mohammad means to muslims.. no they know it very well! dont b dump ppl they know!

X. its the second step after preventing the scarf..scarving...viel..7ejab, whatever u want to call it,,,they said abt 7ejab its a symbol! and they prevent religious symbols including the cross,(dawood) or david star they call it jewish star or the small hat that jewish wear, islam teachers told them its an abligation(fard) not like any of these symbols.. but still they insist on it! whats so wrong in covering urself?!oh ya they really know what freedom is,and no being(dawle 3elmaneye) has nothing to do with al7ejab! and now they r insisting on drawing our prophet and not only drawing him but make fun of him! and if u saw the draws, most of it are abt..??? yes right terrorism (aljehad) sar ismo irhab...
they start targetting arab and islamic world since 9\11 because osama bin laden has knocked the twins! and only God knows who did this! they enter iraq by this silly execuse they are interfering every arab country they want and every thing they dont like in our internal issues using islam... jehad.. killing..savages..... osama!!!! as an execuse! it is political people! they are inplant hatered for islam..... and ya i can start from here the old jews who really know thier religion know that islam is right and one day they will loose it all when ever god wants that..and bush hes from the new christians jews he is a believer and hes targeting islam beacuse his religion beliefs contains that jesus will come again when isreal is totally for jews.......
wait and remember this they will start with alsalah as soon as they can..im here not moving anywhere!

X.france did republish the cartooons! was it for supporting press freedom??! what abt Tayseer alooni in spain? what abt Mansoor il7aj in guantanamo? ok waht abt Roger garoodi in germany? what abt Mordakhai fanono in israel? its now, only now? they have to b free in expressing others beliefs? others holy issues??! and what makes them really so interested in our prophet?? if its not really important to them so whats so special in drawing muhammad muslim's prophet and whats so importanat in republishing them??!??

i dont really like to put things in (almo2amara) theory,never... but there is sth going on... its not only abt arab,its entensive on islam its not by the way thing.... u have to c that! and u have to understand it... i can write a thousand thing abt it ....
i thought ill never write abt political issues here coz i thought this blog will b my hideaway from politics but acctually i couldnt stop myself!

do u think that the new cartoons are really silly?
except mayb conan! and sometimes it is silly!.... yesterday i was thinking abt our old cartoons :) ya alllaaaaaaaaah they were really nice and full of feelings and action and things were going arround all the time:) but i also discovered sth... every cartoon we watched got 3 elements, here they are:

1) something really tragical going on!
2) missing mother, missig father..or both :s
3) a hidden Love story :D
ill explain by giving eg! lol attention plz :D OK...

X.sally: no mother no father! the tragical thing that she was really poor(sometimes) and the guys at the dorm were really bad specially miss (mintion) i really hated her and of course PETER the hidden love story!

X.sandy bell: her mother was missing somewhere! she had so much trouble getting money and doing her work and katy! the mean girl!... yes MARK! the hidden love story..

X. fares alfata alshoja3: do u remember this guy? he did boxing! fares kan msha7ar 3l a5er!nobody in his life...it was all targical and no hidden love story :( but i loved it!

X. lady lady:her mother died in an accident in japan!!!!!!! her father was travelling all the time and she stayed at the castle with (sara) her sister who was bad at the beginig...and the mean woman who turned her life to hell because she was abt to marry her father coz that what grandpa wanted coz of some financial prob ! yes :) ARTHER.... the love story...

bill and sebastian,sederek,elhadaf,sa7eb ilthel iltaweel,lubna alsaree3a! they all had these 3 elements....... even spank! i cried alot on these shows...why did they do that to us!? but they were good anyway :) any more examples? :)
luv....

they used to call us twins in journalism!

ok here is the thing!

when we will have a good universities?!
today i met one of my dear friends... i didnt see him really long time ago, we used to b in one school then we met in alyarmook uni when i was studying" journalism and mass communications", he was so ambitious and full of energy full of good thoughts and he just wanted things to b staraight all the time.... he is still there! stuck somehow.. they got him mad!..when i left alyarmook i told him plz bashar u have to leave here try sth else! u cant b urself here u cant b what u really want..he was so ambitious he told me that im giving up our dream and that hes not moving from (ilsa7afe law 3la ate3 ra2beto)...he decided to fight! oh my God! for 2 continuos hours he couldnt stop speaking abt whats happening there! sometimes they even refused to take his homeworks! he tried too much and he lost too much! now hes planning to leave jordan! ya thats how we loose our good guys!

our department in alyarmook was a COMPLETE DISASTER! very old books they teach us and i think we all know that journalism is really moving fast ..wallah i used to study a book from 1966!! only 2 of our teachers were profs! most of them were holding a high diploma!!!!!! and some of them a master degree! wasta and girls are the keywords there! no its even worse! teachers used to take part and push students abt the election issues! and i have a thousands of stories abt whats happening there! and thats why i left and thats why he stayed!

bashar...... God bless you, a big thanx for u and a huge amount of respect......

sami yusef and amr khaled

i just love these guys!
amr khaled www.amrkhaled.net
...he always makes u feel that everything is possible..he gives u a big push to be a good muslim without any hard stuff..i know that we have to work harder to get the perfect islam but at least he opens the door for u .."welcome u can do it ,u have sth good in u, just let it out".. he gave me a big push everytime i thought im a hopless case... and hes a good looking man and he dress in a nice way just like everybody out there and he say the things the way they are... farnkly..he knows what is going on so he can help u right.. abig big thanx for this graet teacher!hes just great....and he helped alot of people ..and we all needs him he showed up in the right time...

sami yusef! www.samiyusuf.com
the great singer! oh my God! nice voice, nice music, nice attitude... he is being a good muslim in his way and when u listen to his songs u feel soo happy..its music!!! real music and its abt our beloved prophet (pbuh) and u really can enjoy it,its abt almighty ALLAH and u feel so peacefulll:) and some nice parayers..oh my God u have to check his songs!!..and he talkes abt whats going on also in his songs politically and socially ..try him hes perfect....
allah yjzeehom alf 5air 3n kol shabab w banat ilislam :)

and by the way u can b a good muslim and a real muslim in ur own personality and in ur own way, we all know that the rules cant b changed but we can b good mulims and happy joyfull dudes;)
god bless us

girls.... dont b so tough on guys.. they have a different brain!

u know these helpself books thing.. i was totally against reading these books but sometimes they really help u out! they are self help books after all :p
i was reading a book called "what could he be thinking" its kinda a guide to man's mind! and im still shocked!
ill give some facts i read in this book ....

X in biology thier brains r really not like our brains, some places are smaller some are bigger...eg; thats why we rely on talking when solving a problem while they more likely to b aggressive using hands! females has six or seven language centers,males may only have one!

X apperently they dont talk abt whats bothering them, when they dont feel ok!.."talking abt troubles have the opposite effect on male brain, it often create as much stress as it relieves"

X "men can take up to seven hours longer than a woman to process comlex emotive data" hmm thats a problem girls!
its sth in the wiring in thier brains and it called "delayed reaction" so "men more than women will not know what they feel at the moment of feeling and will take longer to figure it"....

thats in general... not everybody is the same but that what studies shown and it seems true! that was an interesting book.. learning abt another creature :) i loved it and i just wanted to share it :)

by the way.. ill b tagging ppl as soon as i know ppl well arround here.....im still new...but ill do it soon ...good luck!

darwish!

he didnt only suggest the idea of blogging to me and helped me there..he also tagged me :) thanx! my crazy life

facts abt me
X 3asabye o dami 7ami and for that i have problems in my stomach :)
X i love reading and im a good writer
X as much as i love my family and friends i need a big space alone and away
X if im not arabian ill choose to b one
X i expect things i know it will never happen....
X i dont drive yet!! im saving the pleasure

things i like abt others...
X the way they smile
X simplicity
X wrong noses :)

things i hate abt others
X telling u that u r silly while its obvious who is the silly!
X fake smiles

my 3rd personality stage!

it was all abt dina.... dina is my best friend since we were in 5th grade... we grew up together we did everything for the first time together we broke the laws and the taboos we lived the teenagers life,we get screamed at from my parents and hers,visited all the new places, we studied for the ''adabi'' tawjeehi, walked to the school every morning , we visited lebanon together,we went to alyarmook uni together..... i studied political sciences in jordan uni after that and she studies political sciences :) in alyarmok uni... shes like my better half shes wise and takes everything in the easy way, the only thing that can moves her in serious stuff is her brain,strong,she never really got mad....im the stressed girl all the time, i want to do everything quickly and most of times i follow my heart and i always get mad.. so shes like my big sister and ill not b exagerating when i say sometimes shes like a mom!

it seems like we will never b apart and we will just stay together the same way all the time.... but happily and suddenly!!!!!!!!!!dina got married :)
we were thrilled! but it was just unexpectable! she got married on last april,shes pregnant and shes shinning and beautiful.....
when it happened i felt all my life was collapsing over my head! oh my god! everything will b different now! totally diferent! i lost her for her better life .... but i got confused and it was noticable... once im depressed once im deciding to marry one of the guys that wanted to marry me in the traditional way coz i thought that i have to get maried also!... here and there here and there! i was really lonely!it was hard for me and it was hard for her..... until i realized its just life! and ull loose ur friends of course not totally for thier better lives :) of course it was coming someday but that was really early for us....we didnt see it coming..... being apart from ur best half after it was here all the time made me"FINALLY" stronger and more responsible even more tender and caring......and i stood for the first time without my best half supporting me all the time! its jsut growing up and a highier level of maturity dina left in me :)

by the way everytime u feel urself growing up ull b loosing sth or at least paying sth!

God makes no mistakes

when you want to give up and ur heart's about to break remember that you are perfect; God makes no mistakes!
by the way! do u think that u can just judge ppl?
u just cant do that... every single person in this world really deserve to b respected and u have to give the chance.. coz ull need that chance one day and ull feel bitter when some one go judgy on you! every single thing in this world have sth beautiful.. if u cant see it right away ull absoulotly notice it later!so if u believe in that i think u trust urself and u love urself!
meet ppl with big smile and warm thoughts and ull b fine and ull b surprised how loved ull b and how unordinary things ull find in ordinary ppl......
what do u think?

the person that i am

they r really so many things that makes me who i am now, it like everybody! everybody is who he is because of the things he faced in his life and done and pass by and haik! so that how its going!
i think they were 3 main satges in my life, the first one when i was 15 and fell in love for the first time!!!!!!!!! after it i became a writer!!!! ya positively i expressed myself in writings!
the second one that was a crucial one! i didnt ever expect it and sometimes i just dont get it ! i was that unscarved girl.... everybody know that ill garduate from high school and go to alyarmook university in "irbid" to study "journalism and mass communications" i mean everybody knows that, and i had that realation with some guy... we were going to get engaged in less than a year and everybody knows....
i gratuadted from high school i studied a year in alyarmook uni... taking my best friends with me after i convinced them its the best place to study!!!!!! and everything was going just the way i thought it will b and dreamed all my life of!
once i discovered.... i dont want this relation .. hes not the right guy so i finished it!
once i discoverd i want to get scarved because its more me....
once i discovered i dont want to b a journalist i want to b a politician! i dont want to stay in irbid and in alyarmook i want to go to jordan uni... so i did!
it was just unbelievable.. everything comes together and it wasnt easy at all ... everybody thought that i was loosing myself and somthing is effecting me badly! and i had myself estem law somties there, because what im doing? im turning my life over!
but the truth was! that i really didnt want what i thought i wanted! and in this case the quicker u move the quicker ull b ok... simply i accept the change and i accept myself.

now im manar amro garduate from jordan uni with political sciences degree... strong personality scaeved and happy with it after everything mom and dad do trying to make me not to wear it :)
yes... we still have the third stage :) ill tell u abt it latter i dont want to b boaring.....
by the way thats me ....

my first by the way!

thank you very much :) u were so supportive! and i think im falling in love ;)

hello everybody.. manar amro .. ur new blog companion... ill b full of politics and stuff abt men and women.... wish me luck!