I again have faith

I have been living in America for the last 3 months and a year.. and it was amazing, its still amazing in every way, I hated America all my life,for me America was the big enemy, the spoiler that mess up everything for us as Arab nation specially when it comes to the israeli_ palestenian case, and of course when you think of a country as being the bad guy you will never exclude the people especially if it's a democratic country that it's people have a big share in deciding who will govern them... but living here changed my point of view big time, i saw people that are not that different from our people who have hope and looking for a better future in a very simple way, people who cares about their jobs and the salary at the end of the month ,and their government had also played them and deceive them!

Oh ya I am trying to justify my love to America the country America the people because i have never imagined myself attached to this country or related to it in anyway.

what really matters after all this, that Obama won the election for 338 votes. which is amazing, and that for sure gave me a lot of hope, he is so intelligent not like in smart intelligent, intelligent like in his personality, his vision. for the first time since probably the 2ND intifada in 2001 i have faith in something that can change the statuesque in the political world. we heard a lot of complaining all over the world that thing will do nothing but get worst, for me it was completely the opposite, its the best chance to make any change , any regular person can make a change in this collapsing world and hopefully that what Obama is doing. it gave faith also because the people did it,they understood what is going on and made the right desicion after suffering.

the relief in the states is unbelievable, the expectations are high, or may i say normal?? because as a world now ,we need to get up and do sth ...America is the leader, we count on America in every way whether we like it or not , that's why we were effected so badly with the polices that was in action for the last 8 years.... one time in a small school research when i was studying politics i wrote that the world will stop reling on the united nation and will seek a powerful country that knows what justice and peace mean because that the human nature, by electing Obama yesterday as the president of the united states of America... i hope that whats happening.

please Obama u gave me faith, u put me back on track of hoping for a better future... i know its hard for u , you have to clean up the mess, but with Ur strength and the support u have u can do it.... we can do it , u and only u could make an Arabian girl from Palestine that she has never seen it, who lived all her life in Jordan as her beloved country... made America another part of my identity, and now I'm part of America and I'm liking it because you become its president....

I'm so proud that you are my president BARACK OBAMA... we can do it .

u dont have to read this (2)

i still think im too young.. not mature enough..... u know that feeling?
i mean sometimes i think, god.... this life is too hard..but still i keep trying and trying,with a smile, i promise, but the very inside of me is frightend..and thats also mayb... bcoz i fear failure and i cant accept it....im that kind of ppl who can always c the empty half of the galss...still im cheerful, always smiling and i can make anybody who share time with me so happy,that kind of person who can create the party now!..... but something is always hidden inside me.

i dont know regret, mayb thats why i feel like im not moving forword coz from time to another u have to look back and check things once more to learn....... from the other side, this not looking back thing gave me so much strength to keep my very first principals that i have and never let them go , but sometimes i look arround and i feel like im one of my kind, not in a good way or bad either, its just im standing alone here in no where..holding my old stuff, my first personality that i once discovered, not able and refusing to b changed, that i love myself the way i am, but sometimes it doesnt work, especially the honesty part_even when i like some guy_ ill just say it, im just that very nice person i mean over nice, that ppl will think im mad or, u know, other bad stuff mayb, and its not abt if u care or not as i dont, but u can c it in others eyes, whatever was the look....and yes i admit it... i just cant take things easy, its also becoz i believe; if u start to take things _that happened to u or things that u care abt_ easy ull loose ur sensibilty in this solid world, i love me being sensetive and romantic and passionate almost abt every thing in my life, but it seems it doesnt work anymore, as i think im balanced between being romantic and realistic ,which sometimes i just do it for things sake, i still can feel that im loosing sensibility and tenderness..its just how i think the world should b going..

but wallah its too much trouble coz when im in love im too deeply madly in love, when i believe in an idea ill b dying for it,when i make friends i over trust them..its just how i am....

ya i may seem silly for some of u as u may say:" hey girl get real",but i know that theres many ppl who r like me and they r abt to go crazy bcoz of it.....

and by the way.. im ok :) its just i feel like "w ba3deeen?"

ألف ليلة و ليلة

بلغني أيها الملك السعيد.....ذو الرأي ا لرشيد
أنني حدثتك عن بلاد سعيدة ,لا زالت تعاني من اضطرابات عديدة,رغم المحاولات الجديدة لتصحيح أوضاعها الداخلية....و في ذلك دافع ,كبير للحد من أي تدخلات خارجية, قد تمس بالأطر السيادية.......فهذه البلاد يا مولاي لطالما اتسمت بالحيادية و التزمت بكافة المعايير الدولية,حفاظا على نفسها من الأهوال والحروب الاجبارية....الواقعة باستمرار, على حدودها الاقليمية.

الا أن يا مولاي......وفي تلك الأزمان, ما كان شيء ليمنع عالمية القرار,ولا حتى عمن يطالب بالاستقرار... فالمنطقة ببساطة محكومة بعدم الاستقرار....فما كان من جماعة الثوار الا أن نجحوا في تمرير الانفجار,فقلبوا الأفكار... وقلبوا الطاولة على رؤوس أصحاب القرار.....فمرت لحظات عصيبة من الانتظار
اضطربت العامة
وبالرغم من التطمينات الكثيرة....الا أن شيئا محسوسا تغير,نظام هادئ كان سائدا قد تعكر,وعالم بأسره بدأ يتفكر......هل بدأنا نتحرر؟ أم أن سجننا في أوطاننا سيتكرر؟

وفي شأن آخر يا مولاي....سمع في تلك الأيام عن امبراطورية صغيرة, مدعومة من امبراطورية كبيرة,بعثت برسالة خطيرة فيها حديث عن أوطان بديلة و الغاء لسيطرة القبيلة في غضون سنوات قليلة...وتسارعت الأنفاس,الا أن كل ذلك لا يقاس,فالاعتذارات وكأنها أزالت جدية المساس...فسكتت العامة وسكت الحراس,و قالت الدهماء....في السياسية....كل شيء مجاز

واتسعت الرقعة يا مولاي...وكأن الخلل في هذه البلاد يزحف

فوصل الى بيت المال,حيث رؤوس الأموال تدبر معظم الأحوال

انها بلاد صغيرة,في منطقة تعتبر على المحك خطيرة...فلا تتعجب ان كانت مصائب عابرة,يمكن ان تحولها الى بلاد غابرة.... وتشتد الظروف,وكأنه لم يبقى سوى استقبال الضيوف,حاملين معهم آخر الحروف.....في رواية لا تصدق ,عن وباء محقق, تحمله و تنقله الطيور,حتى و ان تم طبخها في القدور

أحزنت يا مولاي؟ بماذا تفكر؟

أن توالت المصائب على بلد بعيد كل البعد عن اختلاق المصائب؟ و كأن استهدافا سلط عليها؟

يا مولاي..... انها أدوار تتوالى أصوات تتعالى,لقمع كل رأس يمتد وأي ساعد يشتد ,لبناء أفضل غد ,لأن امبراطورية غبية, أنشأتها الصدفة تمتد, و تعين تجمع قبائل الخزر في وسط منطقة الخطر على تنفيذ الوعد المنتظر

مولاي...أدركنا الصباح

و سكتت شهرزاد عن الكلام المباح

as simple as jabal amman :)

there..... in jabal amman where things r called by their names...yes as simple as that,
who doesnt know "batata" and its pavement, so
"batata"where u can buy potato, acctually the best potato ever :) .....
"3ajeeneh" where u can buy "mo3ajanat".....
"books@cafe" aha... exactly ,where u can set, order a coffee and read a book.... i love their bookshop its cozy :)......
"cups and kilos" ... coffee place when u can get a cup of coffee or buy ur own coffee....
"kanabaye" coz theres a section full of sofas... "kanabayat" and thats where u sit!

jabal amman is just too special for me and i guess for many of you, its different,ancient,and there u can get the best views for amman down town specially from "jordan wild" and the balcony of "books@cafe"...and where u can find the most beatiufull houses in amman, i love jabal amman and i noticed that names things long time ago hehe.... so i decided i want to share it with you guys.....

u know what!.......... ill just go and read! i dont want to start to hate this world so ill just shut up!!
nighty!

tagging???! yes tagging!

weddad tagged me with very nice quizzes :) i really enjoyed it..
and ill b tagging
ala'a, 7amze ,sasha

heres my results:
wow! that was so true!

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick

You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times.Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness! Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

lets play :)

ok... ill start a story in some way and dear bloggers u have to continue by writing a paragraph of this story..use ur imagination in its best way.... nothing is silly ,feel free, write it the way u want...

express ur mood,play with friends,laugh.. all for FREE! on "by the way" sponsered by..... dokanet abo 3aref "nabee3 saja2er faret w 5elafoho!" :D
lets start......

"i was watching TV all day long, movies,songs and news... i really get boared and i just dont know what to do!..so i decided to take a walk and i did,i passed by "abu jbara" so i thought mmmmmmm: im getting a sandwich, so i went towards "abo jbara" and i stand there inspite of the long line.....then.................."

yalla sweeties.... good luck :)

"israel" and its wall!

2002\june israel started building the apartheid wall... acctually the idea of building the wall is not really new in the political israeli mind, and their way of life.... as they started living in ghetos in europe.
in 1923( Japotenski) published a book called(Iron wall) discussing the idea of instruction a wall to separate the jews who live in palestine form palestinians...the zionests called the idea again in 1948 but they couldnt do it...... sharon was the key for starting his gardpas dreams he has america beside him america can pay and america can protect and america can VITO! so they started.... here's some facts abt this wall....

1. the length of the wall is 350 km and with extensions its expected to b 9ookm, and it doesnt stick with the "green line" as they claimed that separates west bank from "israel"..acctually the wall goes deep inside that green line ,and inside the west bank for 10_25 km.
3. every km of this wall costs 2 millions us dollar.
4. this wall isolate more than 250,000 palestinian inside closed parts of land, and more than 100 village and city will b separated from its farms and water resources.
5. abt 16% of the west bank land will b inside walls.
6. theres a law in "israel" says: any dry land, or unfarmed land stays for 3 years or more ,can b taken by "dawlet israel" which is very possible when u put a wall between someone and someone's land !so they can use that law to take more lands and add it to "israel".
7. security for any expecting palestinian country will b almost impossible as next palestine will b some separated lands here and there,that will b so hard for military forces for example to handle protecting torn pieces of land, which will effect any way the possibility of having (palestine).

ok whats really dangerous and even more dangerous if we took the case from the very begining.. in 1948 israel took 78% of original palestine,that means we still have 22% of the land, scholars agreed that with all the settements in west bank and checking points "israel" have another 45% from the 22%, ya it is a disaster but its a fact as well!.. that means if "israel" promises in (road map) will b true in beholding an independent palestine it will b like 10% of original land of palestine! which will look like swiss cheese full of holes! which guide us to the conclusion that "israel" had already draw the real boundaries of palestine as a new country!

ناموا و لا تستيقظوا ما فاز الا النوم

ألف ليلة وليلة

i wrote this when i was in my 3rd year studying my political science...we were a bunch of good student with open eyes,we decided that we have to do sth in our domestic political life..i mean if political science's students will not discuss these things...who will? but bil3arabi (itsharsha7na) acctually we did....our names u know were delievered to some place... me and another student we were almost fearless (mohammad )allah yozkoro bil5air, recieved an obvious msg that u better shut up! i swear by god we didnt say or do anything wrong honestly we just wanted to discuss our domestic affairs with students and known ppl and to show students thier rights... all by law we didnt break any! and we didnt shut up :) i just cant do that!.... i garduated in the hard way and mohhamad in his last year still hanging there...i decided ill write things in ironic but sharp way ..P.S im mentioning a prisoner who died in (aljwaide) from tourtshering .... i didnt continue as i had no place to publish....now as i have A PLACE TO PUBLISH... ill start again here......and lets count! who knows myab that will b the new (alf liele w liele) :)

بلغني أيها الملك السعيد ذوالرأي الرشيد...أن بلادا سعيدة في بقعة ليست بعيدة..كانت جميلة وأخاذة, فيها ازدهار اقتصادي و تقدم علمي وتكنولوجيا حديثة, تفوقت على غيرها من المدن حتى أصبح الزوار يأتونها على الطائرات و السفن,كانت كالعروس في ثيابها البيضاء مناخها معتدل و هواؤها عليل, و لما كانت بهاذا الجمال و التقدم و الحضارة و في موقع مميز بجدارة, كانت سياساتها و شؤونها محل ترقب للنظارة, هؤلاء النظارة لا تفوتهم كبيرة و لاصغيرة ولا اشارة, لذلك كانت البلاد ديمقراطية بجدارة أو بحسب توجيهات بعض من أولئك النظارة, فيها انتخابات و تصويت و كمال برلماني ووزارة, وأصدقك القول يا مولاي..... كان فيها مجال لا بأس به من حرية العبارة, فيها استقرار امني و شعبي, رضا و حبارة

و في احد الأيام أعلنت الوزارة عن وصفة مبتكرة لتعزيز الحضارة وأسمتها (تنمية سياسية) في جو مفعم بالحيوية,فتفائلت جميع الطبقات الشعبية...حتى

..., من لم يفهم منهم معنى التنمية السياسية فقد كانت مؤشراتها ايجابية

لكن منذ هذه التنمية السياسية لم تعد الرؤية واضحة في تلك البلاد السعيدة و أصبحت ذات قضايا عديدة في تناقض بين العنوان و الحقيقة0

وبدأت الأحوال تتغير, مع أن المقصود هو ان تكثر من الازدهار و الحرية و تتخير, فحصل قبل تلك الأيام بقليل أن سنت القوانين في وقت كان البرلمان محلولا لا يعمل وأصبحت الحريات تتململ0

و بدافع من توجه الوزارة, تجمع طلاب العلوم السياسية في الجامعة الأردنية في استجابة للدعوة العلنية لتعزيز التنمية السياسية, فاستجمعوا معلوماتهم و رفعوا معنوياتهم, و بدؤوا يفكرون ببلاد أكثر ازدهارا و حرية, و تفاعلا مع التطلعات الدخلية, فقرروا تأسيس ناد يرفع شعار التنمية السياسية, و يعزز الديمقراطية في بلد الديمقراطية 0

رتبوا برامجهم و تفقدوا حوائجهم و رفعوا الاذن لكبير النوادي و من ثم لكبير جامعتهم, و لم يكن لديهم ادنى شك في قبول الاذن, فالكرة في ملعبهم لأنهم مع التيار تماما و في استجابة سريعة للشعارات العديدة التي رفعتها حكومتهم الرفيعة , من أجل سياسة جديدة

لا تتفاجأيا مولاي

لم يصرح لهم بالنادي, في حقبة السياسة النامية و العقول الواعية, وأصبحوا يتسائلون: هل ديمقراطيتنا بالية؟

تحيرت عقولهم وأحبطت قلوبهم في ظل سياسة نامية0

و ما كان بعد ذلك الا أن منع الطلاب من التعارض العلني أو الاتفاق العلني في مسيرات شعبية, داخل الممرات الجانعية,بسبب (طوشات) علنية لا ناقة لها و لا بعير في المواضيع السياسية و هدد كبير المشاورين بفصل جميع المشائين في مسيرات المجانين

و حدث بعد ذلك أن مات سجين من هول التعذيب,كان معلقا على قضيب في زمن التنمية السياسية التي لا تغيب, في أي زمن نحن؟ هل حقا أصبحنا في زمن"أبوغريب" و المكان ؟ ماذا عن المكان ؟ هل متاح هنا التعذيب؟

مولاي..لا تنسى, أننا في زمن التنمية السياسية التي لا تغيب....ومن الاشارة يفهم كل لبيب

و للحديث بقية...

و ادرك شهريار الصباح .....فسكتت شهرزاد عن الكلام المباح0

my most favorite poem in modern poetry

أنزل هنا و الآن عن كتفيك قبرك

وأعط عمرك فرصة أخرى لترميم الحكاية

........ليس كل الحب موتا

.........ليست الأرض اغترابا مزمنا

فلربما جاءت مناسبة ,فتنسى لسعة العسل القديم

كأن تحب وأنت لا تدري فتاة لا تحبك

أو تحبك دون أن تدري لماذا لا تحبك أو تحبك

أو تحس وأنت مستند الى درج, بأنك غيرك في الثنائيات

....فاخرج من" أنا"ك الى سواك

....ومن رؤاك الى خطاك

ومد جسرك عاليا..... فاللامكان هو المكيدة

!والبعوض على السياج يحك ظهرك,قد تذكرك البعوضة بالحياة

فجرب الآن الحياة لكي تدربك الحياة على الحياة

.........و خفف الذكرى عن الأنثى

!وانزل ها هنا والآن عن كتفيك........ قبرك

once i had faith on him!

its a strange story...im still shocked but happy

i was on the edge my last days...thinking of restarting all my life over that all my rules and principles r good for nothing...until i got an apology from an old friend,some bad incident happened 4 years ago but it was really huge, something that u could say it effected my life deeply.. since then i changed many things in my life.. ok here is the thing im that kind of girls who like to b arround the gyuz,it seems like i cope better with gyuz more than girlz..i have a thousand friend... but since then i changed, less confidence with gyuz balashet a5af!
until yesterday every day since then i was asking myself what did i do wrong with him? sometimes even when u know that u r right u still can feel that thing , mayb i was wrong maybe i misunderstand him, mayb i was bad!

sob7an allah .. just when i was loosing it, he poped up from no where, asking if im still mad at him and that he was wrong!!!!!!!!!! after 4 years!
what i want to say from that, that having faith in urself will never b bad..even when people goes wrong with u and judge u in the hard way..if u know that u r right then u r right and things will reveal even after 4 years!
for everybody who is starting to loose faith...dont! u need that to survive.. life has so much tricks,ups and downs...dont loose what u believe in! dont loose trust in people...they will deserve it one day......:)

change a habbit! hmmm!

its hard! but possible......... sometimes it impossible..
late eating,smoking or argeele,wake up evrey day worrying abt ur day,addicted to music,to wake up early though you have nothing to do OR to wake up late with so much stuff to do, thinking too much about things,carless,grumpy,cant be serious sometimes.....?

how could you stop something or start a new thing? quit something you are used to do,
too much effort you need to do that ..isnt it?
in our everyday life we have sth to change, nobody is faultless or perfect and we work hard to b as perfect as we can..its just life

i think its all based on te mental side to talk to urself abt things to convince ur own soul, body and, mind that u have to be better, that theres sth wrong going on and you really need that to be changed,sometimes u just change! and you dont know y, and sometimes u really work hard for that to be done...
i dont think it has anything to do with how much strong u r or sth, its about how ready you are to cahnge,maybe how sick you are from urself to do the thing that you think its good enough for you this time.... in that case u have to be alerted all the time... u should have enough faith in urself..or a better image in ur mind for urself....
i have a white board in my room i write on it what i think abt myself if i did so or if i didnt... and it worked for me....
people say life can be easy if you make it easy.. sometimes ya it is! sometimes no! u really need a strong thing to push you forword... and sometimes we just forget that we have to change, that you have a certin image abt urself and u like it and, u just like urself thte way it is,but it cant work anymore,not for you, for people....
but anyway..... we need to cooporate with things .....
and its possible :)
luv!

its my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just love this date 21st feb.....
im glad that i was delievered safely to this world inspite of every bad thing i knew in this life ... our lives is a big bless after all....today im turning into 23 years girl :) or mayb im a real lady :) have a nice day everybody ..........
luv :)

romeo and juliet

romeo: oh,torches look dim beside her! she embllishes night like a rich jewel in an ethiopian's ear_too beautiful for everyday use,too valuable for this world. she stands out like a snow, white dove amongst the crows. once the dance is over, ill see where she stands, and make my rough hand blessed by touching hers. did my heart know real love till now? my eyes needs look no further..... i hadn't seen true beauty till tonight. ( the party)

the balcony scene......

Romeo ( to himself): is that a light shinning through the window there?its like the east, with Juliet the sun. rise up,fair sun,and kill the jelous moon, it looks sick already, and pale with grief because you are far lovelier than she is, though only her servant. since shes jelous, quit her service!!........ only court jesters and virgins wear this,, its my lady_love! if only she knew it! her lips move,but she says nothing.that doesnt matter: her eyes speaks for her and ill answer them.im too forward. she isnt speaking to me. two of the most beautiful stars in all the sky have asked her eyes to take their place while they go off on a business somewhere!and what if they changed places? the brightness of her cheeks would put those stars to shame,as daily does a lamp,her eyes, sparkling so brightly in heaven, would make birds sing, because they would think that day has dawned. look how she leans her cheek upon her hand!oh, if only i were a glove upon that hand, so i could touch that cheek.......

Juliet: oh, dear

Romeo(to himself): she speaks. oh, speak again, bright angel! being up obove me, you enhance this night, like an angel seen by astonished mortals, who gaze a loft in wide_eyed amazement as he sits astride a slow_moving cloud, and sails upon the sustaining air!

Juliet( to herself): oh, Romeo,Romeo! why must you be Romeo? renounce your father and reject your name. or, if u won't, just swear your love to me, and ill no longer be a Capulet.

Romeo(to himself): shall i hear some more, or speak now?

Juliet( to herself): its only your name that my enemy. you'd be the same, even if u werent a Montague, whats Montague? its not a hand or an arm or a face,or any other part of man's anatomy. take some other name! what so significant about names? what we call a rose would smell as sweet, whatever word we used for it. if Romeo wasnt called Romeo, he'd still retain his own dear perection without his name. Romeo_ give up your name and exchange it for that name, which is not part of you, take all of me!!

Romeo(to juliet): ill take u at your word. baptize me again, and ill take the name of love. from now on, i've finished with "Romeo"

Juliet: who is there hidden in the darkness,overhearing my private thoughts?

Romeo: i dont like to use my name to tell you who i am. my name, dear saint, is hateful to me because it an enemy of yours, if it was written, i'd tear it up!

sleepless in amman!

the past 2 days were the worst 2 days ever.....
i started a job and i quit it in the same day! it was just a big (maglab)
the book thing that im working at is a complete disaster...people who work on it are really slow! and they think im the super women to do all their work in 48 hours!!! so im gonna quit it! they just want it ready and im really not that good! and its not my gob aslan!!!!!!! and an old love story poped up in my face and i was like ...what the hell is this????? we r done!!!!!!!!!

so i started thinking that im full of faults! i always can blame myself when things goes wrong.... my life never goes bad this way! but it seems when u finish school u have so much new things to face in real life and they will never be as good as u think they have to be! so i think im in a shock!
ya i dont feel good...... as sama said im blue!!
but i know things will b better after all its not a big deal.....sa7?

أعلل النفس بالآمال أرقبها ما أضيق العيش لولا فسحة الأمل

my eight sweet friends :)

ok... this started when i moved to Al Nomow Altarbawi Schools N.T.S,when i was in fifth grade... for me then it was a disaster i loved my first school which was Al Omaria then my parents decided that N.T.S will b just much better for my personality...i was like huh?!? but after all it was the best thing that ever happend to me! i thought i was going to talk abt my friends but ok ill talk abt my school shwai b4 it :), i loved my school in unbelievable way... u just can b special there in ur own way...they were never to strict on us it really felt like OUR school ya our own school, they just give u ur space to built ur own personality in ur special way, u just have that space that u need when u r a teenager in the very right way.. i owe this school too much for who i am now and i still cry every time i pass by it :) LONG LIVE N.T.S ( class of deviles)

anyway one of the very special things i got from N.T.S is .. my very special friends.. i met them there yes when i was in fifth grade ......and they are still my very close friends!!!!!!! u know when u have that (gang) in ur school...u will not believe it! yes we r still together!
Asma,Dina,Rahme,Rasha,Sama,Seba,Sasha,yasmeen And me ..... some of them were together since KG and some of them were a late...we met them in 7th grade :p
we still ALL together... no we dont c each other occasionaly! we are real friends we know eveything abt each other and whats going on in everyones life y3ni we r updated by each others news all the time, we do the meetings whenever we can.... in special occasions on al3eed, on our birthdays, we are all together, in sickness and health.. sometimes we wonder how could this b real? we are all here together again and agian ?! i cant thank god enough for them, im so lucky to have these real eight friends in my life... ppl can survive with only one good friend and im surviving with my best eight friends... i cant b luckier! i still have my school friends :)
this is really big it was like that for my last 10 years?? woow! i just realized that!

girlz i loveee yooou so much..... u prbably know that ;p

BY THE WAY GIRLZ.........
wilfarawla bta3 ilfarawla ... wil3atel beta3at teeeh :D

my shelfs

these are my sweet little shelfs that i learned from them alot... this is my favorate,best part in my room i love it, books are my other world and i owe the pages alot! sometimes i just talk abt sth and i give information abt things im not aware that i knew anything abt it..... then i remember that i read it once on a book or a mag...so this little library was like my backup in some situations and i really prefer buying books rather than borrowing them i just feel they really belong to me and they r helping me!! just me! so i feel exeptional by these books most of my time.... they really helped me to build my personality so i thought i really owe these shelfs and these books a big thanx! :)
..its exactly above my bed and its the only thing that i picked carefully when i designed my room... regardless the blue painting and the orange curtains with the blue squares :)
luv.......
by the way ... the picture of my shelfs will never appear! i tried a 1000 time! so use ur imagination :)

denemark.... amr khaled

heres what amr khaled has said abt the denemark thing with our prophet (pbuh)
www.amrkhaled.net/articles/articles1242.html
and by the way.....
what is it with u muslims? is burning embassies is the best u can do?! thats exactly what they want from us they want to stick this terorrism thing with our bodies more and more and we r giving them what they want, they just couldnt be so convincig abt why did they enter iraq..and thier ppl start asking themselves was this war really important for us? and the 9\11 that weak story is starting to collapse,so they found another game for us,they just know what they r doing!!! devils!! now america really is governed by real devils!
thats how we deal with it ,,burn,scream,protest and then what? forget and pray?!what abt practical steps? what abt seeing whats really going on with us that they could reach our holy issues easily?!
this time either we will b seriuos abt our anger and we will wake up and revise all our bad situations in iraq,in palestine spcially the aqsa...in syria....iran whenever america sniffing...or this time will b the last time that u will c a muslim or even an arbian livig with dignity ever! wake up its a big game....and u cant c any big man taking place where are you???! and we r the pupets!!
oh my god...i cant take this anymore!

you dont have to read this!

i just want to get things out of my chest..im not feeling ok and mayb that will help me out!

i dont want to b so dramatic or even too romatic ...its just where is the love? is there anybody miss the real pure love here except me?! did we really used to realations between males and females and love turned to sth can b easiley changed? or not even important? it seems like in our time to like somebody is really enough!does our hearts become so dull and cold? and i mean love the real love! who can get 2 persons married..sacrefice....the love that can make u the happiest ever and u really dont feel anything going wrong as long as u have that one beside u or even at ur site....when u can have ur little world away from anythig and no matter what!!!!!!! ull b fine.... why its so hard to love somebody and to b loved back?! always!!!! even when everything will go ok after all it seems too hard to fall in love... !
who can deny the need for love at least then to b loved..but it seems like always we are loved by the wrong person, even if this person can b so kind and tender and sweet..they just dont fit or click! and sometimes ur loved ones seems too far and staying in that other world that u just cant b in!
sometimes i feel even if im so succesfull in everything in my life and really doing good things and having my time full and work write or read....i just feel its worthless without having somebody to love ...mayb its only me but mayb ppl do feel this way sometime..if anybody feels the same dont hesitate plz tell me coz i need it!
when u have love in ur life u just look nicer sound nicer u think in urself in a better way u wait every morning to come and evey moon to rise....u just feel better!
im a big believer in love...and without love i think things will go even worst in this world.... and life cant goes on!
take it easy! its only some feelings:)