Wednesday, March 29, 2006

u dont have to read this (2)


i still think im too young.. not mature enough..... u know that feeling?
i mean sometimes i think, god.... this life is too hard..but still i keep trying and trying,with a smile, i promise, but the very inside of me is frightend..and thats also mayb... bcoz i fear failure and i cant accept it....im that kind of ppl who can always c the empty half of the galss...still im cheerful, always smiling and i can make anybody who share time with me so happy,that kind of person who can create the party now!..... but something is always hidden inside me.

i dont know regret, mayb thats why i feel like im not moving forword coz from time to another u have to look back and check things once more to learn....... from the other side, this not looking back thing gave me so much strength to keep my very first principals that i have and never let them go , but sometimes i look arround and i feel like im one of my kind, not in a good way or bad either, its just im standing alone here in no where..holding my old stuff, my first personality that i once discovered, not able and refusing to b changed, that i love myself the way i am, but sometimes it doesnt work, especially the honesty part_even when i like some guy_ ill just say it, im just that very nice person i mean over nice, that ppl will think im mad or, u know, other bad stuff mayb, and its not abt if u care or not as i dont, but u can c it in others eyes, whatever was the look....and yes i admit it... i just cant take things easy, its also becoz i believe; if u start to take things _that happened to u or things that u care abt_ easy ull loose ur sensibilty in this solid world, i love me being sensetive and romantic and passionate almost abt every thing in my life, but it seems it doesnt work anymore, as i think im balanced between being romantic and realistic ,which sometimes i just do it for things sake, i still can feel that im loosing sensibility and tenderness..its just how i think the world should b going..

but wallah its too much trouble coz when im in love im too deeply madly in love, when i believe in an idea ill b dying for it,when i make friends i over trust them..its just how i am....

ya i may seem silly for some of u as u may say:" hey girl get real",but i know that theres many ppl who r like me and they r abt to go crazy bcoz of it.....

and by the way.. im ok :) its just i feel like "w ba3deeen?"

87 comments:

wedad said...

manar, God created us with a need and that need must fill from GOD y3ni its empty, so we need to fill this empty place in our heart with god spirit and god words,if not we will stay thinking like that!!

Anonymous said...

Just be more realistic Manar...use ur brain...use ur logic..dont use ur heart all the time...life is wonderful...alot of wonders..we r still young and we take everything personally..and thats a big mistake...u r so dreamy manar...u cant change and satisfy everybody in this world...(CZ)

manar said...

yes thats right weddad... thanx
cz??? im trying!

YABCO said...

Hi... Wha2ver u are.,Dreamy'realistic'logic'etc....,Heythat was u,uve just to say:::::)Girl Thats the way u used to be cause thats the way u like it"i mean im not with u in "im trying not to be over trustfull" cause simply u cant'..HMmmm anyways

manar said...

thank u omar!! ya3ni thank you! yes i know i just cant....hmmmmmm

Ala'a Ibrahim said...

Manar, it was really nice to hear this from you (Welcome to the club :) )
regarding that you don't regret anything, well girl, I also have this thing, cause I believe if I didn't do this things, I wouldn't have been the guy I am. and i also believe that I'm the best guy to be me :)
and this honesty thing, I really like that my friends are honest with me, cause I really hate to make assumptions, especially with my close friends, and trust, that's the biggest problem, We all live in a world that trust is so hard to find, that's why we all start looking for people to trust, we tend to trust anybody, but it's only a matter of time, until you meet the people who really deserves your trust, you would be just satisfied with them :)
And what does this life means if you can't be romantic, having some time to live in our dreams, out of this planet for a while, and what does love means if it wasn't crazy.
We all pass in such phases in our lives, the only key is trust, we should always have trust in our selves, we are great people, and it's so bad that we don't know how great we are.
Girl, hope the best for you :)

manar said...

thanx ala'a..i appreciate it u really lefted my spirit :)

manar said...

* actually lifted! hehe

soos said...

well well well Mono's...I dont know if you care but when I look at u I see a person who embraces life with all its goodness and badness and is trying to live it to the extremes..u r that kind of person who never gives up...thats inspiring sweety...I beleive in you and ur ability to acheive whatever u want..our world is still ok as long as people like u r in it...luv u stupid:*

manar said...

soos.. of course i care :) that was very nice.. thanx!!! soos i love u tooo

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